Radio Silence

I have to apologize for not posting in a month. The radio silence was unintentional and I assure you I have a long list of encouraging and challenging posts stored up (coming soon).

At the end of June I began my MFA (masters degree in fine art). While the focus of my studies is creative writing, my blog writing has taken a bit of a back seat to my big project on the go: my memoir.

I encourage anyone who has lost a child and is struggling with grief to be creative.

The arts – in all its many forms – were a huge tool I used to help along my journey of loss after Zachary died.

Writing was an amazing outlet.

As a part of my grad studies I am focusing on doing a first edit of my memoir. It is a huge job! The process is interesting as well because it puts me back into my darkest times. It is so true that life experiences looks different in retrospect. I wouldn’t say that “hindsight is 20/20” because grief masks so much and even in looking back I find that I cannot see that time without the emotion that accompanied it. Many days Zach’s death still feels like it happened yesterday. Time still folds itself over and makes no sense every now and then.

Yet that backward glance, in and of itself, is healing. It allows me to see how far I have come.

The radio silence has ended. I promise. I love writing about my experience, the good and bad, around the death and legacy of my son. My passion is to help other people and I hope this blog, and eventually my memoir, will do just that.

Thank you for reading and commenting. I encourage you to get in touch if you are struggling or even if we’ve talked before and things are now going well, I’d love to hear from you.

Best wishes & love always,

Alexis Marie